My sister died last year. She died of breast cancer. There's speculation that it came about because she submitted to fertility treatments. So, I have a nephew who killed my sister. Take that shit home and live with it!
How could she?! How could she?! Didn't she care about any of us? The answer is "No." Paige cared about no-one but Rugger. Not me, or Sash, or Laur, or her nephews. She didn't care about anyone but Rugger.
Rugger was what she was leaving. Not what she hoped she'd leave, but on the "off chance".